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mF bhuq ibmfr rihx lwg peI sI. rUh poÈI qoN vfps prqx vyÜy qF mF ny kih idwqf sI-” puwq hux myrf kuwC nHI duKdf. qUM Gr af igaf mYnUM sbr af igaY.” pr hux pqf hI nhIN sI lgdf ik AusnUM ikhVf Gux Kf irhf sI. AusnUM pyt ivwc koeI iBafnk rog lwg igaf sI. rfmpurf PUl dy zfktrF qoN Aus df rog buiJaf hI nhIN sI jf irhf. aÉIr mF nUM asIN cMzIgVH pI[ jI[ afeI[ ivwc dfÉl krvf idwqf. AuQy ipMz dy jgIrdfr gurbÉÈ isMG df poqrf, myjr jgdyv isMG df lVkf (ijnHF dy sfzy bËurg muËfry sn) mrhUm adyvjIq isMG aYm[ zI[ kr irhf sI. Aus ny zfktrF nUM kih ky mF df bhuq hI Auicq EhV puhV kIqf. mfihr zfktrF nfÜ Ausny sfzI jfxkfrI krvf idwqI sI. myrf qfieaf qy qfeI (pykI bYTI qfeI nUM bfeI nCwqr ipMz lY afieaf sI, nfnf mr igaf sI, ijs ny myry bfp dy kql vyÜy aYlfx kIqf sI ik jdoN sfry mr gey iekwTI hI mkfx lfh afvFgy) mF dI syvf sMBfÜ ivwc jut geI sI. myry qfey nfÜ Ausdf pqI pqnI vfÜf koeI irÈqf qF hY nhIN sI. dovyN srF ivwc iewk kmrf lY ky rih rhy sn. hux bfeI nCwqr dy mUhoN vI cfcI Èbd inkÜx lwg ipaf sI ijvyN Ausdy mUMh ivwc guV dI roVI pY geI hovy qy Auh gfhy bgfhy cfcI df pqf lYx af jFdf sI. byby ny vI Aus dy isr ‘qy hwQ rwKky ikhf sI-” bws puwq ho igaf jo nhIN sI hoxf. kudrq dy hwQ vws sI sfrf kuwC. jy Auh (myrf bfp) DoKf nf idMdf qF ikAuN …?” mF df gwc Br afieaf sI.
iewQy hI sfzy ipMz dy lflf dOlq rfm df lVkf vI dfÉl sI. Aus dy pirvfr dy jIa vI sfzy vfÜy kmry ivwc hI rih rhy sn. hux iewQy ienHF lokF dy mnF ivwc jfq-pfq vfÜf koeI vI Ìrk nËr nhIN sI afAuNdf. ieko stov ‘qy sB kuwJ bxdf sI qysfry AunHF hI BFizaF ivwc KFdy pINdy sn. Èfied ieh Érc bcfAux krky sI jF hux jfq pfq df mslf qrl ho irhf sI. myrI AunHF idnF ivwc zyZ ku sO rupey qnÉfh sI. sfrI hI mF dy ielfj ‘qy lwgI jFdI sI. blik mYN krËfeI vI ho irhf sF. Cotf blivMdr jo POj ivwc sI iewk vI pYsf nhIN sI Byjdf. Auh afpxI Gr vfÜI nUM vI nfÜ lY igaf sI jo kihMdI sI ik Aus nUM mF ivcoN BYVf muÈk afAuNdf hY. kuVIaF jF aMbo hI sFB sMBfl krdIaF rhIaF sn. Bly Gr dI nsIb kOr ny iewk vfr vI sfzI mF nUM hwQ nf lfieaf. iqMn mhIny mF nUM cMzIgVH rwKxf ipaf pr AusnUM koeI Ìrk nhIN sI pY irhf. mYN hr mhIny qnÉfh imÜidaF hI cMzIgVH phuMc jFdf qy sO svf sO ruipaf qfey dy hwQF ‘qy Dr idMdf. Érc GtfAux leI mYN sfeIkl cuwk ilaf qy roË Gr afAux lwg ipaf sF. mF dy lgfqfr mihMgy tYst hoeI jf rhy sn pr ibmfrI df koeI vI Byq nhIN sI lwg irhf. iqMn mhIinaF dy lgfqfr tYstF nfÜ afÉr rog lwB igaf. mF nUM aMqVIaF dI tI[ bI[ ho geI sI. sfnUM iÌkr pY igaf ik ieh rog qF Gr dy jIaF nUM vI lwg skdf hY. mYN adyvjIq koÜoN pqf kIqf qF zfktrF ny ÈMkf dUr kr idwqf ik ies ibmfrI dI dUijaF nUM lfg nhIN lgdI huMdI. lfg vfÜI qpidk iPPiVaF dI ibmfrI huMdI hY. ies nfÜ asIN byiÌkr hoey ËrUr pr mF dy ies mihMgy ielfj dI icMqf vI jfn df KO bx geI.
mYN rupflhyVI vyÜy dy imwqr mfstr hrbMs isMG nUM lwB ilaf jo hux lihl klonI ivwc pitafÜy rih irhf sI. bhuq ipafr krdy sn dovyN pqI pqnI, ijvyN mYN AunHF leI iewk prkfr df quhÌf hovF. lMmy smyN bfad jd mYN Gr igaf qF BrjfeI hrbMs kOr vyl dI qrHF sfrI dI sfrI myry duafÜy ilpt geI. ieh bhuq hI suKdfeI aihsfs dI GVI sI ju Èfied myrI qrsyivaF dI mfrI rUh Aupr sOx mhIny df Crftf sI. rupflhyVI qF ienHF df iewk bwcf bwbU hI sI jo myry koÜ hI Kyzdf rihMdf sI. hux AunHF dy do bwcy hor sn, iewk muMzf qy iewk kuVI.
“Bfa jI ikwQy guafc gey sI qusIN?” hrbMs BrjfeI df myry mn ivwc byhwd siqkfr irhf hY mF qoN vI vwD. krnfl E[ tI[ vyÜy avqfr nF dI kuVI ny vI myrI rUh nUM ievyN hI srsbË kIqf sI. Èfied ieh mnuwKI mn dI kmËorI hY jF iksy gulfb dy Puwl dIaF koml pwqIaF vrgy iksy irÈqy dI kfmnf qy Èfied ieh bMjr rUh dI hUk hI hovy, ies irÈqy leI myry koÜ koeI pirBfÈf nhI hY. bws ieh kih skdf hF ik hrbMs BrjfeI dI glvwkVI df ieh inwGf suKD qy arfmdfiek aihsfs hI sI ju mYN afpxI iËMdgI dy ienHF plF ivwc mfx sikaf sF. rupflhyVI vFg Auh ieQy vI mYnUM rsoeI ivwc ibTf ky rotI KvfAuNdI. bwcy aqy hrbMs isMG afp skUl cly jFdy, ipwCy asIN dovyN iekwly hI huMdy. swc afKdf hF ik hrbMs BrjfeI df sprÈ mF dy sprÈ nflLo vI pivwqr jfpdf.
mF dy ibmfr hox dI Ébr AunHF nUM vI qVPfAuNdI sI ikAuNik mYN AunHF koÜoN ieh Byq Cupf ky rwiKaf hoieaf sI ik myry cfr BYx Brf (myry qfey qoN) hor vI hn. mYnUM qF ieh sB kuwJ afpxI hyTI hI jfpdf irhf sI. Auh afqimk qOr ‘qy mF nfÜ Bfvnfqimk qOr ‘qy rupflhyVI vyÜy qoN hI juVy hoey sn, ikAuNik AunHF leI mYN iewk ivDvf mF df puwqr hI sF, ijs dy pqI nUM ipMz dy guMizaF ny awj qoN koeI pwcI vrHy pihlF kql kr idwqf igaf sI. … qy Èfied hrbMs BrjfeI dy ies ipafr ‘coN ies KflIpx dI BrpfeI hI ho rhI sI. mYN ajy jfigaf vI nhIN sI huMdf ik BrjfeI jI dy bol suxdy-” Bfa jI jfgxf nHI ajy?” qy ijAuN hI mYN awKF KolHxIaF, BrjfeI jI ny myry mMjy dI bfhI ‘qy bYT ky pey nUM hI bFhF ivwc lY lYxf. myrI bMjr rUh Aupr keI sflF qoN ieh aMimRq vrsdf af irhf sI. ieMny suhxy irÈqy iksy afdrÈ smfj ivwc hI sMBv ho skdy sn pr ieh qF ieAuN jfpdf sI ijvyN icwkV ivwc koeI kml df Puwl iKiVaf hovy.
cMVIgVoN Ébr afeI ik byby nUM bhuq Ìrk pY igaf hY qy mYnUM qfkId kIqI geI sI ik mYN jldI cMzIgVH phuMcF qF ju AusnUM ipMz ilaFdf jf sky. ieh ikvyN ho skdf sI ik mYN pitafÜy Brf BrjfeI koÜ nf rukdf. rfq rih ky jdoN mYN rvfnf hox lwigaf qF AunHF ny qfkId kIqI ik vfpsI mOky mYN mF jI nUM imÜf ky iljfvF. vfpsI ‘qy mYN mf nUM pitafÜy Auqfr ilaf. duhF jIaF ny mF nUM awKF ‘qy ibTf ilaf. bVI Kfqr kIqI AunHF ny mF dI. bwcy vI ijvyN iksy bËurg aOrq dI Cuh nUM qrsy pey sn, iqMno hI byby dy nfÜ af pey ijvyN Auh AunHF dI skI dfdI hovy.
rotI tuwk KFidaF sihvn hI BrjfeI ny mF dI ibmfrI bfry puwC ilaf qy mYN BoÜy Bfa hI afK idwqf ik mF nUM aMqVIaF dI tI[ bI[ hY. mYN qF ieh klpxf vI nhIN sI kr sikaf ik qpidk Èbd bMb dI qrHF Ptygf qy iewk Èihd vrgy irÈqy dy cIQVy Auzf ky ieMnf bKyVf KVHf kr dyvygf. suxdy sfr duhF jIaF ny Ptf Pt bwicaF nUM mF qoN lFBy kr ilaf qy mYnUM burf Blf kihx lwg pey. mYN sB kfsy dI mF nUM iBxk nhIN sF pYx dyxI cfhuMdf. vyKidaF vyKidaF mfhOl qxf Biraf ho igaf.
“dyKo Bfa jI jy mF jI nUM ieMnI iBafnk ibmfrI sI qF qusIN ienHF nUM iewQy nhIN sI lY ky afAuxf. afÉr asIN vI qF bfl bwcdfr hF.” dUjy kmry ivwc iljf ky ieh ieqrfË AunHF ny myrI hQylHI `qy rwK idwqf jo dgdy koiely vFg myrI rUh nUM Dur aMdr qwk Julsx lwigaf. mYN zfktrF dI rfie anusfr bhuq sÌfeI idwqI pr hux ies koeI asr nhIN sI hoxf ikAuNik qpidk Èbd hI afpxy afp ivwc bhuq Éqrnfk sI-aCUq ijs nUM Cuihaf nhIN sI jf skdf. awj socdf hF ik kI Auh iewk pfsV irÈqf hI sI? Èfied mYN hI AunHF nUM imlx iewk vfr iBAury vI igaf sF qy iPr iewk vfr axvMzy pMjfb dy nIm phfVI ielfky dy iewk skUl ivwc vI imÜx igaf sF qy iPr hux pitafÜy mYN hI ienHF nUM lwiBaf sI. … qy Èfied mYN hI ies Bfvk irÈqy nUM sFiBaf hoieaf sI. qy bws ies irÈqy dI ijvyN mOq ho geI.
mF dy nwvy pYinslIn dy tIky lwgxy sn jo lvf ley gey. hr roË iewk goÜI aYosonYks, do cmc pfs aqy ivtyimn bI kMplYks dIaF goÜIaF dI bwJvIN Kurfk dyx nfÜ lgfqfr iqMn sflF ivwc mF ny nO-vrnO ho jfxf sI. mYN hr mhIny pUry mhIny dI duafeI pihlF hI ilaf ky rwK idMdf sF. myrf jQybMdIaF aqy sfihiqk smFgmF ivwc nF QF bx igaf sI qy myrf qorf Pyrf bhuq vD igaf sI. mYN Gr ivwc Kuwzf bxf ky mYN keI dysI murgIaF pfÜ leIaF qF jo byby nUM aFizaF dI Gft nf rhy. iPr mÈInF nfÜ kwZy bwcy vI Gr dIaF murgIaF dy kwZy cUicaF ivc, rfq dy hnyry ivwc DoKy nfÜ KMBF hyT dy ky nvF qjrbf vI kr ilaf jo sÌl irhf. byby vfsqy hI nhIN hux vycx vfsqy vI aFzy vfDU ho jFdy. duwD vI muwl df afAux lwg ipaf qy idnF ivwc mF qMdrusq ho geI. iek sfl dy aMdr qF mF ivwc ijvyN koeI nvIN rUh af AuqrI sI. hr pfisAuN mF nUM qy mYnUM vDfeIaF imÜx lwgIaF sn.
“myrf puwq aqr isAuN bQyrf slwg aY BYxy. buwkF dy buwk pYsy roVHI jFdY myry `qy.” mF pqf lYx afeIaF aOrqF koÜ myrIaF isÌqF dy puÜ bMnHdI. mYN huwb jFdf-” jy myrI iewk gwl mMn ly nf hux … bws nUMh ilaf dyvy myry bYTI bYTI.” ieh iÈkvf mF dy mUMhoN mYN anyk vfr sux cuikaf sF.
iek vfr qnÉfh imlx ‘qy jd mYN mhIny dI duafeI dyx afieaf qF vyiKaf ik pfs do zwbIaF qy hor duafeI ajy bcIaF peIaF sn.” byby afh do zwbIaF hor kfhnUM mMgfAuxIaF sI, mYN lY qF afieaF? Y” mYN sihj Bfa hI mF nUM puwiCaf sI.
“mMgfeIaF kfhnUM aYN puwq, mYN duafeI awDI kr idwqI. myrf Èyr ikvyN sfrI qnÉfh lfeI jFdY. hux mYN rfËI aF suwK nfÜ.” byby df jvfb sux ky mYN pwq vFg zol igaf. zfktrF ny qF afhgf kIqf sI ik pUry iqMn sfl ies duafeI dI ieho imkdfr rwKxI hY. nhIN qF ibmfrI iPr jfg skdI hY.
“byby qUM cMgf nHI kIqf. ieh qF bhuq mfVf kIqf mF qYN. krI kwqrI Kyh krqI byby myrIey.” myry koÜoN aOK CupfeI nf jf skI.
“bciVaf! qUM qF buwkF dy buwk pYsy roVHI jfnY. Auh tuwtVf POjI rMn nUM qF pYsy ByjI jFdY. myry kMnI bwtI nHI vgfhI. cMdry ny kdy Kotf iswkf eI Gwilaf hovy. ieh rMn GoiVaF dI kihMdI aY myry `coN muÈk afAuNdY.” byby afpxI gorI icwtI nUMh vwl ieÈfrf kr ky duafeI Gwt krn dIaF afp GVIaF dlIlF suxf rhI sI.
cMzIgVHoN cYikMg krvf ky afAuNidaF jdoN asIN sMgrUr afey qF byby kihx lwgI-” puwq afpF blvMq nUM eI imÜ cwlIey.” blvMq bfeI nCwqr dI mfsI dI DI sI jo smfxy pRIqm isMG nUM ivafhI hoeI sI qy pRIqm isMG pYpsU vylLy igafn isMG rfVyvfÜf dI srkfr ivwc izptI spIkr rih cuwikaf sI. duhF pqI pqnI ‘qy hI rUp zuwlH zuwlH pYNdf sI. lgdf hI nhIN sI ik Auh sfzy hI irÈqydfr rfmdfsIaf brfdrI ‘coN hoxgy. rfjkumfr qy rfjkumfr hI qF jfpdy sn. bfeI nLCwqr dy muMizaF dy ivafh afey sn ieh dovyN jd mYN AunHF nUM pihlI vfr vyiKaf sI qy mYN vI ijvyN ÌÉr dy sfgr ivwc qfrIaF lfAux lwigaf sF. ieh sB kuwJ plF df hI sI ikAuNik mYnUM AunHF nfÜ AudoN hI nÌrq ho geI sI jdoN pRIqm isMG myrI BrjfeI vwloN pytI ‘coN kwZ ky ivCfey nvyN nkor ibsqry ‘qy nhIN sI bYiTaf. Ausny qF myry nfÜ apxwq ivKfAuNidaF ikhf sI-
“clo mfstr jI AuDr cwldy aF.” Auh myry nfÜ sfzy Gr af igaf sI ijwQy mYN AunHI idnI pMdrF solF ku sO ruipaf Érc ky suhxI bYTk pfeI hoeI sI. bYTk ivwc qÉqpoÈ Aupr hr vyÜy nvF ibsqrf iviCaf rihMdf sI. pRIqm isMG sfzI bYTk ivwc ies ibsqry `qy af ky bYiTaf sI. mYN AusdI ÉfqrdfrI qF krdf irhf pr aMdroN axiBwijaf hI irhf sF. dupihr qoN bfad Auh Ègn dy ky cly gey sn. cfh vI AunHF ny myry koÜ hI pIqI, nCwqr bfeI dy Gr nhIN.
bfeI nCwqr nUM ies vrqfry dy bfvjUd AunHF Aupr bhuq mfx sI ik Aus dy BYx BxoeIaf ieMny vwzy jgIrdfr hn. dilq icMqn nF dI iksy Dfrf ny ajy jnm nhIN sI ilaf pr myrf sfrf cfa aqy ÌÉr sB kfÌUr ho igaf sI. qF vI myry avcyqn ivwc hI ieh Bfvnf ivksq ho cuwkI sI ik jfq pfq df ieh vrqfrf bRihmxI smfj dI dyx hY. luwt coNG dy bl pRIqm isMG Auprly joVF ivwc awpV igaf sI qy hyTF rih gey jIv AunHF leI koeI aihmIaq nhIN sI rKdy.
blvMq nUM imÜx dI myrI koeI iewCf nhIN sI pr mYN mF dI Bfvnf nUM vI Tys nhIN sI phuMcfAuxI cfhuMdf. asIN smfxy BYx blvMq dI koTI jf Auqry. ies pirvfr dy rihx sihx nUM vyKky lgdf hI nhIN sI ik Auh sfzy nfÜ koeI sMbMD rKdy hn. ieho ijhy lok sfzy irÈqydfr ikvyN hoey? mYN icwq hI icwq ivwc soc ky rih igaf. bfeI nCwqr ny afpxf lVkf inrBY iewQy kMm kfr leI Cwizaf hoieaf sI-BYx blvMq kOr df lfzlf BqIjf. sfnUM slIky nfÜ cfh pfxI ipaf ky blvMq ny inrBY nUM afvfË idwqI-” vy inrBY, ilaf afpxI bftI vy. qUM vI cfh pI lY.”
inrBY kuqry vfÜI mÈIn koÜ bxy afÜy ijhy ivcoN afpxI bftI lY ky mÈIn dy koÜ hI bYT igaf. blvMq ny iewk vwKry BFzy ivwc cfh pf ky Aus dI bftI ivwc Aulwd idwqI ijs nfÜ myry iËhn ivwc guwsy aqy nÌrq dI iewk lihr cIr ky lMG geI.
mYnUM Xfd afieaf ik myrf qfieaf klfs ikaF nfÜ sIrI sI qy mYN AunHF dy muMzy krqfr nfÜ pVHdf sF AunHF dy hI cubfry ivc. myrf qfieaf afpxI bftI AunHF dy Gr mÈIn koÜ bxy afÜy ivwc hI rKdf huMdf sI qy keI mYN vI Ausy bftI ivwc mÈIn koÜ bYT ky cfh pIidaF hIxq mihsUs kIqI sI. idhfVI jFidaF prny dy lV bMnHI bftI ijvyN mOrF ivwc swp dI qrHF zMg mfrdI rhI sI. kI hux inrBY dy mn ivwc vI Aus iksm dI ihwljuwl ho rhI sI jo mYN mihsUs krdf irhf sF. Èfied nhIN. ieh Auh jVI nhIN sI. Auh qF sgoN rfijaF rfixaF dI jUT cwt ky amIr bxy ies pirvfr ivwc gMdI cgÜI mwKI vFg ivcr irhf sI-mYÜy kucYÜy kwpiVaF ivwc sijaf-Pwibaf rfxI BUaf df BqIjf rfjkumfr. isr dy vfÜ juwtIaF bxy hoey qy ivwc kurbÜ kurbÜ krdIaF jUaF. … vfh!
“lY byby eys Gr ivwc mYN awj qoN bfad kdy lwq nhIN dyxI. ieh myrf pihlf qy afÉrI Pyrf hY mF.” rfq nUM sONdy vkq mYN mF nUM suxf idwqf sI. jdoN kinÈk hvfeI hfdsy ivwc AunHF dy iqMn bwcy POq ho gey qF mYnUM nhIN lwigaf ik Auh myry afpxy kuwJ lgdy sn. asl ivwc bfeI nCwqr dy hI afpxy sn, Auh vI isrÌ dUijaF awgy PVH mfrn leI ik Aus dI ipwT vwzy Kfndfn nfÜ lgdI hY qy bws. dUjI gwl AusnUM vwzI Jfk sI ik inrBY rfhIN Kry AusnUM AunHF dI ÉfsI vwzI jfiedfd `coN hor nhIN qF awD pcwD hI KYrIaq vjoN imÜ jfvy. mYnUM ipwCy ijhy pqf lwigaf ik Auh dovyN jIa vI ies sMsfr qoN qur gey hn. bfeI nCwqr ny AunHF dI hspqfÜ ivwc bhuq sFB sMBfÜ kIqI pr Aus dy hwQ kuwJ nhIN afieaf isrÌ blvMq dy gÜ `coN lhfeI cynI dy. Auh AudoN hwQ JfV ky rih igaf jdoN pRIqm isMG dy sikaF ny sfrI jfiedfd sFB leI. amIrF dy isroN cMgI jUn guËfrn df Ausdf supnf DUV ivwc imÜ igaf.
aKIr hoxI ny rMg ivKf idwqf. bfeI nCwqr dI DI df ivafh sI qy byby ny grm jlybI Kf ky TMZf pfxI pI ilaf ijs nfl iewk dm hI Ausdf gÜf bYT igaf. ieh qF aYvyN bhfnf hI sI. asl ivwc qF Aus ny duafeI awDI krky hI ibmfrI nUM iPr swdf dy idwqf sI. Éurfk GtfAux nfÜ jrfsIm iPr qoN bl kr gey sn. zfktrI ÈbdF ivwc jrfsImF ny duafeI nUM hI afpxI Éurfk bxf ilaf sI. byby iPr qoN Ausy ibmfrI dI jkV ivwc jkVI jf cuwkI sI. cLzIgVH df nvF ielfj vI Èfied kfrgr nhIN sI irhf. ipMzF df swiBafcfr! qfieaf myry nfÜ bgYr rfie kIqy hI cMnxvfÜ dy iksy vVy vYd koÜ lY viVaf. vfpsI vyÜy Auh mYnUM ipMz dy awzy ‘qy hI imÜ pey. byby nUM sfeIkl dy kYrIar ‘qy ibTf ky pYdl hI cwlxf pYxf sI bhuq hOÜI hOÜI. mfmUlI ijhf Jtkf hI AusnUM aOK idMdf sI. grdn dI qklIÌ krky myry koloLN sfeIkl cMgI qrHF sMBfilaf hI nhIN sI jf irhf. mYN sMquln ivgV jfx krky izwg pYx lwigaf sF ik myry mUMhoN sihvn hI inkÜ igaf-” hfie nI byby duwK dyxIey. kI krF mYN hux ikwDr nUM jfvF. ikAuN duafeI GtfeI qUM?”
bws byby ny hmyÈ leI hI Ëbfn nUM qflf lf ilaf. jdoN vI hfl cfl puwCxf, Ausny bws isr df ieÈfrf hI kr Cwzxf qy bws. vYd dI duafeI ny dUjy idn hI afpxf rMg ivKf idwqf. iek dm hI Ëor dIaF AuÜtIaF lwg geIaF qy pyt nUM sojf afAux lwg ipaf. bol Aukf hI bYT igaf.
Aus rfq ilKfrI sBf brnfÜy vwloN DnOly ivÈfl kvI drbfr sI qy mYnUM swdf sI. sfihq sBf rfmpurf PUl aqy brnfÜf ilKfrI sBf dI pRiswDI dUr dUr qwk PYlI hoeI sI. afpxy BivwKI pCqfvy dI awg ivwc sVn leI mYN JoÜf cuwk ky DnOly nUM cwl ipaf. cfhIdf sI, jFdf hoieaf byby nUM dws ky jFdf qy idl dI kih ky jFdf ik agly idn pYisaF df bMnH-suwB krky cMzIgVH cwlFgy. pr bgYr imlLy hI clf igaf. mYnUM qF kvI drbfr dI bxI hoeI sI ik ikMny lokF dI hfËrI ivwc myrI kivqf ‘qy qfVIaF vwjxIaF sn. byby df kI sI? -Ausny qF hux kUc krn dIaF iqafrIaF kr leIaF jfpdIaF sn. myry leI kvI drbfr ËrUrI ho igaf sI.
afpxI kivqf dy jMmy iswky aqy imÜI dfd dy afnMd ivwc ctkfry mfrdf jd mYN Gr afieaf qF sB qoN pihlF mF nUM imÜx leI ahuiÜaf. mF qF ikqy nhIN sI. BYx mihMdr qoN pqf lwigaf ik rfqo rfq pyt ieMnf suwj igaf sI ik byby nUM sfh vI nhIN sI afAuNdf. bfpU hurIN Pyr AusnUM cMzIgVH lY gey sn. myry pYrF hyT ijvyN awg mwc AuTI. Jwt-pwt bYg ivwc kwpVy qy loVINdf sfmfn pf ky mYN vI cMzIgVH jfx dI iqafrI kr leI. bfhr af ky gÜI ivwc KVH igaf iksy soc ny pYr nUV ley-
‘mnf kI kryNgf jf ky? qyrf byby nfÜ qF myÜ hoxf hI nhIN. qUM bws ivwc bYTf cMzIgVH nUM jf irhf hovyNgf qy byby dI kfr qyry koÜ dI vfps af rhI hovygI qYnUM pqf vI nhIN lwgxf. rihx dy jfx nUM. byby awvl qF awj hI nhIN qF kwlH nUM iewQy af hI jfxI hY. hux Aus dI mOq dy vfrMt Éfrj krn vfÜf rwb ikDry vI nhIN hY.’
gÜI ivwc KVHf mYN socF ivwc iGr igaf ik afÉr apRYl df mhInf hI sfzy Gr leI mnsfAuxy lY ky ikAuN afAuNdY? jdoN qoN mYN surq sMBfÜI sI sB mOqF apRYl dy mnhUs idnF ivwc hI hoeIaF sn. myry bfp df kql 19 apRYl jfxI ivsfKI qoN CI idn bfad hoieaf sI. bfbf hrI isMG (bfpU hurF df cfcf) dI mOq vI iesy mhIny hoeI. iPr vwzf bfbf cMnx isMG (bfpU hurF df bfp) vI myry E[ tI[ kr ky afAux qoN kuwJ idn pihlF hI mYnUM ibnf imÜy qur igaf aYn apRYl mhIny. myry ipMz afAux qoN iewk idn pihlF hI Aus df Bog vI pY cuwikaf sI. myry leI ieh bhuq vwzf sMqfp sI. qfxI dI kuMBÜ ivwc aMqly idnF qFeIN isrÌ myrI Éfqr izwigaf rihx vfÜy bfby dy mYN aMqm drÈn vI nf kr sikaf. Xfd krky myrf qF awj vI ivrlfp Cuwt pYNdY, eys Aumr ivwc vI. iek hoxhfr BUaf guridaflo vI iesy mhIny rfjsQfn ivwc Ëorfvrpur mfqf nfÜ POq hoeI. qy hux mF ny vI iesy mhIny jfx df ierfdf kr ilaf sI. … qy
mYN sbr krky bYg bYTk ivwc rwK idwqf. kxk pUrI qrHF afeI hoeI sI. soicaf jy mYN cMzIgVH vwl qur jFdf qF kxk Bur jfxI sI. so mYN Gr dy jIaF nfÜ kxk vwZx jf lwigaf. agly idn Pyr asIN lwg-Bwg awDf kMm inbyV ilaf. Qwby cukidaF POjI ny rfj sFJf kIqf-” byby ibmfrI nfÜ nhIN mrI. byby df iCMdf puwq suKdyv mF dy pyky Gr rihMdf sI. mYN Aus nUM biTMzy alYktRIÈn dy kors ivwc pfieaf hoieaf sI. AuTdI jvfnI ivwc pYr rwK irhf sI. Prfiez kihMdf hY ik nOjvfn BYx Brf nUM ieko kmry ivwc nhIN sOxf cfhIdf. suKdyv ny kuwJ aijhf kr ivKfieaf sI ijs nfÜ iewk pivwqr irÈqy dI dIvfr Zih ZyrI ho geI sI. jd mF nUM pqf lwigaf qF Ausny mfsI aqy mfmI dy PVidaF PVidaF pMdrF vIh muwkIaF afpxy pyt ivwc mfr leIaF. jlybI qF aYvyN bhfnf bxI sI. mYN Qwbf AuQy hI rwK ky vwt ‘qy bYTf hor vI BYVIaF socF ivwc zuwb igaf. jdoN ies Cokry df jnm hoieaf sI qF mF huwbI hoeI sI. mYN pMjIrI nhIN sI Kf irhf qy mF ny ikhf sI-” vy Kf lY dyK qyry nfÜoN suhxY.” qy aMbo ny pYNdI ‘qy PUs pfieaf sI mYnUM aMdr iljf ky hux suhxy jMmx nUM nvF Ésm kr ilaf, iewk pihlF Kf ilaf myrf iZg vrgf puwq.” AudoN mYN afpxy afp nUM nf ijAuNidaF ivwc smJ irhf sF nf miraF ivc. aMbo df aMimRq vI Cikaf hoieaf sI pr Èfied ieh Aus dy aMdr nhIN sI ricaf. jy qfsIr hI nhIN bdlxI qF Blf ieho ijhy azMbr dI kI loV? awj mYN socdf hF.
agly idn mYN ajy imsqrItf dy GroN dfqIaF dy dMdy kZvf ky ilafieaf hI sF qy Kyq nUM jfx dI iqafrI hI kr irhf sF ik iewk aMbYszr kfr gÜI ‘c af ky rukI. mfsI qy mfsV qy myrf qfieaf kfr ivcoN bfhr af gey pr mF ajy qwk bfhr nhIN sI inkÜ rhI. mYN sB kuwJ pihlF hI smJI bYTf sF. qF vI mYN kfr vwl ahuiÜaf-” myrI byby ikwQy aY?” aMdroN inkÜdI Dfh nUM mYN kfbU krn df Xqn kr irhf sF pr bykfr sI sB kuwJ.
“hY gI aY bciVaf hY gI aY. sbr kr puwq vy.” mfsI dI lor inkÜ geI. mYN kfr dy afÜy duafÜy gyVy KfeI jfvF pr byby ikDry vI nf idwsy-” mfsI ikwQy aY myrI byby?” mYN muV muV kfr dy aMdr vyK irhf sF. zrfeIvr ny kfr dI izwkI KolHI ijs ivwc mF guwCf muwCf hoeI GUk suwqI peI sI. izwkI ivwc quMnHI mF dI bo mfrdI lfÈ dy mYnUM drÈn krvf idwqy gey. myry aMdroN hUk AuTI-’ vfh byby afÉr vyÜy ieh cMgI zoÜI lwBI qUM! ieh cMgI Xfqrf kr ky afeIN nI mF! qYnUM aMqm vyÜy sIt vI cwj dI nf imÜI mF. qUM iewQoN qwk df sÌr ikvyN qih kIqf hoxY? ieh ikho ijhI zoÜI aY ijs ivwc qUM aKOqI mOq dy dyvqy nfÜ lfvF lY ky ivdf hoeI aYN mF?”
kihMdy ny mF df AupryÈn TIk ho igaf sI. gÜ geI aMqVI kwZ idwqI geI sI. hoÈ afAux ‘qy zfktr ny mF nUM puiCaf sI-” mF jI ikvyN EN?” byby ny TIk hox df sMkyq idwqf sI. zfktr ny byby nUM hwQ Ëor nfÜ Guwtx leI ikhf sI. byby ny zfktr df hwQ Ëor dI Guwt idwqf sI. zfktr dI qswlI hoeI qF Ausny mrIË nUM jnrl vfrz ivwc Byjx leI kih idwqf qy afksIËn lfh idwqI. qy jd mF df bYz bUhy ivwc afieaf byby df BOr AuzfrI mfr igaf sI. zfktr ny mUMh ivwc mUMh pf ky bhuq PUkF mfrIaF pr hux ieh Kyz hwQ afAux vfÜI nhIN sI rhI. ds apRYl 1972 nUM mF lMmI AuzfrI mfr geI qy hux Auh mYnUM kdy vI zfh nhIN dyvygI. … qy puiÜs dy cwkr qoN zridaF mF nUM kfr dI izwkI ivwc quMnH idwqf igaf sI. kI pqf puiÜs vfÜy kih dyx ik ieh lfÈ qF iksy Éfs aprfDI dI hY ijs Aupr keI mukwdmy cwl rhy ny. so ies lfÈ nUM igRÌqfr kIqf jFdf hY. aMgryËI sfmrfj dI cuMGxI ‘qy pÜI ies puiÜs qoN hor kI qvwko kIqI jf skdI sI. byby dI lfÈ ivcoN bo af rhI sI ijs krky Aus df CyqI qoN CyqI sMskfr kr idwqf igaf. mfmy afey qy mfmIaF isvf Zkx dI ikiraf kr geIaF. mfmy hurIN kih gey ik AunHF nUM sMskfr vyÜy AuzIikaf nhIN igaf awj qoN ies Gr nfÜ koeI sMbMD nhIN irhf. ieh qF aYvyN bhfnf hI sI. AunHF ivcoN mF dy Bog ‘qy koeI nhIN afieaf jo ipClIaF GtnfvF shI sfbq krn leI kfÌI sI. qy ies dy nfÜ hor skIrIaF vfÜy vI hmyÈ leI tuwt gey sn.
suKdyv ieh gwl mMnx leI iqafr nhIN sI. mfmI kihMdI rhI sI-” puwq zfktr koloN jdoN asIN afeIaF qF mYN kuVI vfsqy qfxf lf ‘qf. beI jhfn aYN nf afKy beI geIaF qF cMgIaF BlIaF sI hux afh kI ho igaf? jy kuVI mMjy `qy izwg pYNdI qF ÉbrY kI kI suxnf pY jFdf. mYN ikhf cuVyly bws lokF nUM qurdI iPrdI hI ids.”
qy mYN socdf hF ik mF nUM puCdf mF myrIey qUM qF kihMdI sI ieh myry nfÜoN suhxf aY ijs dI mYN pMjIrI nhIN sI KfDI. qyrf myry nfÜ iPr kfhdf ihrK sI nI mF?”
roNdIaF kuVIaF nUM cuwp krfAuNidaF vfr vfr ieh vfk mUMhoN inkÜdf sI-” cuwp kro myrIaF bIbIaF BYxF … mYN QonUM mF bx ky pfÜUMgf. … qy mYN do kuVIaF leI qy Coty mnjIq leI mF bx igaf sF. qIh bwqI sfl dI Aumr df kurbfnI df bwkrf ijs ny afpxI jfn iËbfh hox leI hfËr kr idwqI sI. bhLuq kuwJ mfVf ho igaf sI. mYN suKdyv nUM doÈI Tihrf irhf sF. kI mYN TIk socdf sF? kI kuVI doÈI sI? nhIN Èfied dovyN hI nhIN. Aumr df AubfÜ Èfied dovF qoN nf sMBfiÜaf igaf.
vwK vwK mulkF dy smfjvfdI pRbMD dy qjribaF ny sfbq kr idwqf hY ik suKfvyN mnuwKI irÈiqaF dI isrjxf sFvyN-pwDry rfj ZFcy bgYr sMBv hI nhIN. luwt pRDfn smfj ivwc dUjy dI luwt iewk afm vrqfrf mMn ky svIkfiraf jFdf hY. luwt dIaF BFqo-BFq iksmF ho skdIaF hn. afriQk luwt hI luwt df rUp nhIN, srIrk, mfnisk, Bfvnfqimk rUp vI ho skdf hY luwt df. ivvhfrk pwDr ‘qy vI iksy dI luwt kIqI jf skdI hY. blfqkfr, kql, blYkmyl afid nf-brfbrI dy smfj dIaF alfmqF hI hn. irÈiqaF dI anfrkI asfvyN smfijk pRbMD dI hI dyx hn, cor Aucwky, lwTmfr, zfkU, kfql, aprfDI afid rfj swqf ‘qy kfbË hn. iPr afËfd irÈiqaF dI sFvyN pwDry rfj pRbMD qoN bgYr klpnf kIqI hI nhIN jf skdI. hr isstm dy irÈiqaF dI afpxI ipRBfÈf huMdI hY. sfzy supinaF dy smfj ivwc lfËmI qOr ‘qy ivakqI kyNdrq, grË pRDfn irÈqy nhIN hoxgy, sgoN ikrq df siqkfr kridaF brfbrqf dy afDfr ‘qy Ausrngy irÈqy. mYN ijnHF lokF dI sMgq ivwc ivcr irhf sf, qrk sMgq gqIÈIl irÈiqaF dI ivigafnkqf aqy smfijkqf nUM sQfpq krdy jfpdy sn.
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