hflYNz dI myrI pihlI Xfqrf

- afstRylIaf qoN igafnI sMqoK isMG
 

1977 vflLI afpxI sMsfr PyrI dOrfn mY hflYNz dy vwzy sLihr aYmstrzYm ivc jf Auqiraf. nIdrlYNz qy zwc vI eysy mulk dy hI hor do nF hn. hvfeI awzy qoN Auqr ky sYlfnIaF vflLy iek ssqy ijhy hotl ivc jf afpxI itMz-PhuVI rwKI. hvfeI awzy qoN hotl qwk ikvyN puwjf, ieh qF hux Xfd nhI irhf. afm qOr qy mY tYksI qy sPLr EdoN hI krdf hf jdoN ies dI mjbUrI hovy. hvfeI awzy, bws stYNz jF rylvy stysLn qoN Auqr ky itkfxy phuMcx leI mY sB qoN pihlF EQy jfx vflLI lokl bws jF ryl df hI pqf krdf hF. jF iPr do cfr iklo mItr qurnf vI pvy qF vI tYksI vflI ‘PYlsUPLI’ qoN bcf hI krdf hF. dhfky bIq jfx ipCoN bhuq sfrIaF gwlF Xfd nhI rihMdIaF. zfierI mY ilKdf koeI nhI. ies leI myrI hryk ilKq myrI XfddfsLq qy hI inrBr huMdI hY.
hotl ivcoN nhf ky qy kwpVy bdl ky jdoN mY bfhr bfjLfr nUM inkilLaf qF soicaf ik koeI BfrqI Zfbf imlLy qF rotI KfDI jfvy. ijAuN hI kInIaF dI rfjDfnI nYrobI qoN cwilaf sF, rfh ivc rotI ikqy nhI sI imlL skI. rotI nflL imlLdf julLdf rom ivc pIjLf hI pihlI vfr vyiKaf, suixaf qy Kfx df nftk ijhf kIqf sI. Xfd rhy ik EhnIN idnIN nYrobI qoN bfad isrP vlYq ivc hI gurduafry huMdy sn. kInIaF qoN ipCoN hor iksy mulLk ivc gurduafrf nhI sI huMdf. kInIaF dy gvfZI mulk, XUgMzf ivc gurduafry sn pr EhnIN idnIN EQoN eIdI amIn vwloN ihMdusqfnIaF nUM kZ idqy jfx kfrn Auh bMd sn qy eysy leI do vfrIN EQoN df myrI itkt ivc sty hox dy bfvjUd vI mY EQy Auqrn df hOslf nhI sI kr sikaf qy ies qrHF pihlF 1975 ivc qy iPr 1977 ivc dovyN vfrIN isDf hI nYrobI qoN, imsr dI rfjDfnI kfihrf af Auqiraf sF.
bfjLfr ivc inkilLaf qF iek ihMdusqfnI nUM iksy Zfby bfry puiCaf. Xfd rhy ik dwKxI amRIkf df mulk surInfm, zwcF dy aDIn irhf sI. EQy BfrqI mUl dy bhuq sfry lok rihMdy sn ijnHF ivco smy smy swbrkwqI igxqI ivc eyQy hflYNz af vsy sn. Ausny iek rYstorYNt df aqf pqf dwisaf. mY trYm PV ky Aus cONk ivc jf Auqiraf. aflLy duaflLy Jfq mfrI pr koeI BfrqI sLkl nf idsI. cONk dy dUsry pfsy do bIbIaF slvfr kmIjL vflLy sUtF ivc sjIaF, ies pfsy nUM ipT krky KloqIaF, ids peIaF. pqf puCx leI mY cONk lMG ky AuhnF nUM jf bulfieaf. AuhnF dy sUtF dI bxqr pUrbI pMjfb dy sUtF dy mukfbly kuJ purfxy PYsLn dI hox krky, AuhnF dy pMjfbxF hox bfry sLMkf qF pihlF hI myrI soc ivc Aupj igaf sI pr jdoN myry bulfAux qy AuhnF ny myry vwl afpxy mUMh BvfeyN qF sLMkf scfeI ivc prgt ho igaf. AuhnF dy kwd afm pMjfbxF nflLo lMmy qy rMg vI kuJ vD inKrvyN hox krky mYnUM ieh afBfs ho igaf ik Auh sfzy pfsy vwl dIaF pMjfbxF nhI sn. iPr vI bulfAuxf qy sI hI. myry AuhnF qoN pMjfbI jfxdIaF hox bfry pwuCx qy AuhnF ny afiKaf ik Auh pTfxIaF hn qy pMjfbI nhI jfxdIaF pr QohVf ku AurdU smJ lYNdIaF hn. agly svfl bfry Auh vI myry vFg axjfx hI sn pr sfzy iqMnF dy aflLy duaflLy JfqI mfridaF myrI njr iek borz Auqy pY geI. Auh idwlI dy vsnIk iksy BfeI blbIr isMG df ieMzIan rYstorYNt sI. mY AuhnF df sLukrIaf krky rYstorYNt dIaF pAuVIaF jf ciVHaf. iek kursI mwl ky AusnUM ajy ‘Bfg’ lfey hI sn ik iek monf pMjfbI nOjvfn mYinAU vflLf gwqf PV ky af igaf qy myry awgy rwK idqf. mY Auh cuwk ky ieh afKidaF, “iehnUM rwK pry qy jo cMgf qy ssqf hY Auh lY af.” tybl Auqy iek pfsy krky rwK idqf. Ausny iPr myrI sfbq dfhVI qy pwg vwl cMgI JfqI mfrdy hoey, myry bfry kuJ aMdfjLf ijhf lf ky, vYsLno QflLI df suJf idqf. mY afiKaf[ “CyqI kr qy ilaf.” Ausny POrn qoN pihlF hI sjfeI hoeI QflLI myry awgy ilaf rwKI. Aus ivc do qMdUrI rotIaF, iek pfpV, iek kOlI ivc dflL, iek ivc sbjLI, sflfd, acfr afid sn. QohVy ku sLfied cOlL vI sn. ieh sfrf kuJ Ckx AupRMq myrI pUrI qswlI ho geI qy nflL hI ies gwlL dI vI BrpUr qswlI hoeI ik Auh sfrf kuJ hI mY mukf vI idqf qy BrpUr vI ho igaf; nhI qF afm qOr qy ies qrHf dy prosy hoey Kfxy Gwt hI kdI myry pfsoN muwky hn qy jUT Cwzx krky nf-KLLusI ijhI vI ho jFdI hY ikAuNik keI kfrnF krky soc ivc ieh gwl aVI hoeI hY ik jUT Cwzxf pfp hY.
rYstorYNt df mflk afp qF idwlI igaf hoieaf sI. Aus cMgy nOjvfn ny, aPLsos ik mYnUM Ausdf nF nhI hux Xfd, Auh pwtI dy nyVy iksy ipMz df vsnIk sI, myry pfsoN QflLI dy pYsy Aus mulk dI krMsI, pMj iglzn, lY ley jo ik AusdI izAUtI bxdI sI. nflL hI mYnUM afiKaf ik ds vjy rfq dy rYstorYNt Ausny bMd krnf hY. jykr mY Aus smy muV af skF qF Auh mYnUM rfq sLihr Gumf dyvygf. “aMnHf kI BflLy do awKF!” mY KLusLI prgt krky hF kr idqI qy dwsy smy qy muV EQy cilaf igaf. Aus sohxy swjx ny rYstorYNt bMd kIqf qy mYnUM afpxy nflL lY ky bhuq sfrf sLihr trfmF rfhIN Gumfieaf. itkt, afeIs krIm, kfPI afid dy pYsy vI mYnUM ikqy nhI dyx idqy. iPr sB qoN vzyrI KLusLI vflI gwlL ieh kIqI ik myry vrgy vfsqy gLlq smJIaF jfx vflIaf QfvF, ijnHF dI ik pwCmI mulkF ivc Brmfr hY, df ikqy vI ijLkr nhI kIqf qy nf hI AuhnF QfvF dy ikqy nyVy dI lMGy; hflF ik ijs hotl ivc mY Tihiraf hoieaf sF Aus dy rfh ivc aijhf bfjLfr pYNdf sI ijQy ik sfzy smfj dI soc anusfr gLlq QfvF sn. hor idlcspI vflLy sQfnF bfry nflL nflL afpxI jfxkfrI rfhIN rosLnI pfAuNdf igaf.
iek cONk ivc jdoN trfm puwjI qF Ausny dwisaf ik ies cONk qoN nyVy hI gory iswKF df ‘gurU rfmdfs afsLRm’ hY. mY afiKaf ik idny mNY lBFgf. agly idn dupihr qoN pihlF hI mY trfm PV ky Aus cONk ivc jf Auqiraf qy EQy iek lMm slMmy qy pqly ivakqI nUM, jo ik vfijaF vflLI msLIn vjf ky, lokF awgy zwbf ijhf krky pYsy mMg irhf sI, qoN, Ausdy zwby ivc cvfnI iglzn pf ky, afsLRm df rfh puiCaf qF Ausny dws idqf qy mY jf AuhnF nUM ‘drsLn’ idqy. pihlF afsLrm dI iencfrj bIbI srdfrnI swq krqfr kOr KLflsf jI imlLy qy iPr AuhnF dy pqI, isMG sfihb swq krqr isMG KLflsf jI dy drsLn hoey. isMG sfihb jI dy drsn hox qy JOlLf ijhf ipaf ik ijvyN mY AuhnF nUM pihlF ikqy vyiKaf hoieaf hovy! myyry aijhf ijLkr krn qy AuhnF ny vI aijhf hI ivcfr prgt kIqf. afKr AuhnF nUM Xfd af igaf. AuhnF ny mYnUM dwisaf ik Auh 1975 ivc, sRI drbfr sfihb dy ienPLrmysLn afiPLs ivc imlLy sn. Auh vfikaf qF mYnUM Xfd nf afieaf iek hor Xfd af igaf. kuJ smf pihlF mY AuhnF dy smyq AuhnF dI tIm dI grup Poto iek zwc mYgjLIn ivc qwkI sI.
ivcfr-ivtFdry dOrfn, srdfrnI sfihbf bIbI swq krqfr kOr KLflsf jI, ny mYnUM puwiCaf ik mY AuhnF df afsLrm ikvyN liBaf! myry Aus mMgqy df ijLkr krn qy AuhnF ny Aus bfry ies pRkfr jfxkfrI idqI: ieh mno ivigafnI zfktr hY qy iesny ieh Koj krn leI afrjLI qOr qy mMgqy df kMm sLurU kIqf qF ik ieh Koj kIqI jf sky ik lokIN ikAuN mMgqy bxdy hn qy ‘dfnI’ iks pRyrnf aDIn mMgiqaF nUM KLYr pfAuNdy hn! ies sbjYkt Aupr Ausny Koj-pwqr ilKxf sI. ieh kuJ kridaF ieh swcIN mucIN hI mMgqf bx igaf hY qy hux Pwul tfeIm mMgx df kMm hI krdf hY. ieh jfx ky mYnMU bVI hYrfnI hoeI. mY eyhI smJdf sI ik aiq dI mjbUrI ibnf koeI mMgqf nhI bxdf. ieh qF sB qoN iniKD kMm hY. hryk dy awgy hwQ awzxf.
afpsI jfx pCfx AupRMq mY isDf qy spwsLt hI puwC ilaf ik mY ies mulLk ivc do hPLqy ivcrn df ivcfr rwKdf hF. hotl ivc mY rihxf nhI cfhuMdf. jykr ho sky qF mY ieh idn quhfzy afsLrm ivc rih skF qy bdly vjoN quhfzy rYstorYNt ivc jyhVf kMm kr skdf hovF qusIN mYQoN lY skdy ho. bVI KLusLI nflL AuhnF ny ieh svIkfr kr ilaf qy mYnUM EQy itkx dI afigaf dy idqI. mY Esy idn afpxf ltf ptf hotloN cuikaf qy EQy af zyrf zfilLaf. iek Coty ijhy kmry ivc bMkr vFg do ibsqry hyT Aupr sn. AuhnF ivcoN iek Auqy mYnUM kfbj ho jfx leI afK idqf qy dUjy ibsqry Aupr pihlF hI iek isMG sijaf hoieaf PLrYNc nOjvfn rih irhf sI. asIN dovyN qkrIbn ieko ijhI aMgRyjLI hI jfxdy sF. so vfhvf sfzI mIjLf imlL geI. AusnUM pwg cfhIdI sI qy myry pfs icwty rMg dI Auh pwg mOjUd sI jo ik nYrobI dy gurduafrf sfihb ivcoN mYnUM isropy vjoN bKLisLsL hoeI sI. Auh mY AusnUM dy idqI. Auh bVf KLusL hoieaf.
agly idn mY AuhnF dy nfl rYstorYNt ivc jf ky syvf krvfeI vI pr Aus qoN agly idn mY vyiKaf ik afsLrm ivc kuJ bIbIaF hfrmonIam vfjy nflL kIrqn krn df Xqn ijhf kr rhIaF sn. mY AuhnF hwQoN vfjf PV ky surF qy AuNglLf PyrIaF qF Auh bIbIaF bhuq pRsMn hoeIaF. mYnUM AuhnF ny afiKaf ik rYstorYNt ivc nhI jfxf. iesdI bjfie AuhnF nUMM kIrqn, bfxI df sLuD pfT qy gurmuKI awKr isKfAux dI syvf krF. ieh kfrj qF myry mn psMd sI. ies qoN vzyrf mfx myry vfsqy hor kI ho skdf sI! mY ieh syvf sLurU kr idqI qy AuhnF bIbIaF ny vfrI vfrI mYnMU afpxIaF kfrF qy afly duafly GumfAuxf sLurU kr idqf.
ieh mulk bfkI dy pWCmI mulkF vfg hI bVf sohxf qy amIr hY. ieh vI ipClIaF sdIaF ivc bfkI XUrpI mulkF vFg dUr durfzy dysLF nUM afpxIaF kflonIaF bxf ky AuhnF Aupr kfbj irhf hY. KfsI DrqI iehnF ny smuMdr ivcoN kZ ky AusdI sohxI vrqoN kIqI hoeI hY. DrqI qoN awgy smuMdr ivc bMnH mfr ky eyDr df pfxI Aus bMnH qoN pfeIpF rfhIN smuMdr ivc suwt ky, DrqI KusLk kr leI hoeI hY. ieh KusLk DrqI smuMdr dy pfxI nflLoN nIvI hox krky QwilAuN pfxI lgfqfr isMmdf rihMdf hY. sym dy ies pfxI df smuMdr vwl inkfs ies qrHF kIqf igaf hY: pihlF Coty Coty Kfl bxfey hoey hn. QF pr QF sym df pfxI DrqI ivcoN inklL inklL ky iehnF KflF ivc vih qurdf hY qy hryk Kfl dy aMq Aupr ivMz imlL lwgI hoeI hY ijsdy vwzy vwzy pwKy hvf nfl cwldy hn qy Aus sLkqI duafrf pfxI inwky qy nIvyN KflL ivcoN Aucy qy vwzy Kfl ivc cVH jFdf hY qy EQoN eysy qrHF awgy hor vwzy KflL ivc qy ies qrHF hor vzyry ivc. ies qrHF vwzy qoN vzyry huMdy huMdy ieh nihrF df rUp Dfr lYNdy hn. aKIr qy smuMdr dy iknfry lfgy bxfey gey bMnH dy kolL ieh pfxI jdoN cilaf jFdf hY qF EQoN iPr awgy pfeIp dI shfieqf nflL bMnH qoN pfr, smuMdr ivc pf idqf jFdf hY. ieh krm lgfqfr hvf dI shfieqf nflL cwldf rihMdf hY. ies qrHF smuMdr dy QwilAuN kwZI hoeI DrqI Aupr kukVIaF, sUrF, gfeIaF afid dy PLfrm hn. iehnF PLfrmF qoN ielfvf bhuq sfrI jLmIn Aupr itAUilp PwulF dy bfg hn. jdoN mY meI mhIny ivc EQy igaf sF qF bsMq ruwq hox krky cfr cOPyry hirafvl, lihlhFdy PuwlF dy dUr dUr qwk Kyq ivKfeI idMdy sn. ies qoN ielfvf pfxI dIaF AuhnF nihrF ivc bwqKLF qy hor pfxI dy pMCI qrdy hoey mn mohk njLfrf pysL krdy sn. JfVIaF ivc shy, gfhlV afied inwky inwky jfnvr afm hI Pudkdy idKfeI dy jFdy sn. cfr cOPyrf bsMq ruwq dI mfdkqf nflL srsLfr idKfeI idMdf sI. aijhf suMdr kudrqI njLfrf qwk ky, BfeI vIr isMG jI anusfr, “kfdr dI kudrq df jlvf lY lYNdf iek sjdf.” vflLI hflq qfrI ho jFdI hY.
eysy aYmstrzYm sLihr ivc hI iek rfq nUM, kuJ ‘gupq rihMdy’ iswK muMizaF ny afpxy rYx bsyry ivc rfq df pRsLfdf iekTy Ckx leI inmMqrx dy idqf. aijhy mOikaF dI qlfsL ivc hI qF mY sfrI dunIaF qy iPr irhf hF. Aus rfq nUM iek nOjvfn, ijs df nF s[ cYn isMG sYxI sI, ny myry sfhmxy iswKF dy BivK dI bVI BYVI qsvIr iKwcI. iesnUM sux ky mY kuJ mfXUsI ijhI mihsUs kIqI. Ausdy afKx df sfr kuJ ies qrHF sI: smf afAux vflLf ey, jdoN sRI drbfr sfihb aMimRqsr ivc POjI juwqIaF sxy iPrngy. sLrfbF qy isgirtF pIxgy. iswKF df bhuq burf hfl hovygf afid. myry mn ivc EdoN iswK pMQ dI bVI cVHdIklf dI qsvIr smfeI hoeI sI. sOx dy aMnHy vFg mYnUM hr pfsy hirafvl hI idsdI sI. akflIaF vwloN, ieMdrf gFDI dI lfeI hoeI aYmrjYNsI ivruD morcf, bVI sLfn nflL ijiqaf igaf sI. ies ijwq dy nqIjy vjoN hoeIaF ielYksLnF ijwq ky, jnqf pfrtI dI kyNdr ivc srkfr bxI sI. akflI Aus srkfr ivc pihlI vfr BfeIvflL bxy sn. EQy bxy dovyN akflI vjLIr, s[ surjIq isMG brnflf jI qy srdfr DMnf isMG gursLn jI, myry injI qOr qy jfxU vI sn qy ies gwl df mYnUM injI qOr qy kuJ mfx ijhf vI sI.. pMjfb ivc vI myry jfxU srdfr bfdl dI srkfr bx rhI jF bx cuwkI sI. mY AucIaF hvfvF ivc GuMm irhf sF. BfvyN gwl qF myry Auqy, “mfmy kMnIN bIr blIaF, BxyvF afkiVaf iPry.” vflLI hI sI pr smucy qOr qy iswK pMQ dI cVHdIklf df nsLf myry Aupr pUrI qrHF svfr sI. myry pRotYsLt vjoN afKy ivroDI sLbdF dy Auqr ivc Ausny afiKaf, “awgy mwsf rMGV, abdflI, lwKU afid nhI ieh kMm kr cuwky! awgy nUM ikAuN nhI aijhf anwrQ ho skdf!” myry pfs ies kOVy mjbUn qoN pfsf vwtx qoN ibnf hor koeI cfrf nhI sI pr iek iswK nOjvfn vwloN icqiraf iswK pMQ df ieh aDogqI vflLf icqr suxky myrf jI bVf hI KLrfb hoieaf.
gwl afeI geI ho geI. pr ieh sfrf kuJ qy ies qoN vI ikqy vD, swq sfl bfad ho igaf. hnyr sfeIN df, ajy qwk koeI bfhnxU vI nhI bMinHaf igaf ik ijs sdkf awgy qoN aijhy Gor anwrQ nUM vfprn qoN roikaf jf sky! koeI vI bdidmfg hfkm iPr aijhf kihr vrqf skdf hY qy iswK pihlf vFg hI qrlo mwCI ho ky qy jfn, mfl, mfx, snmfn df Gfx krvf ky, lhU dy Guwt Brdy rih skdy hn. mY afpxI hflYNz dI 2004 vflLI dUjI PyrI dOrfn Aus swjx nUM lBx df Xqn kIqf qF ik AusdI ‘durBivKbfxI’ bfry Aus nflL gwl krky AusdI dUrdrsLqf dI dfd idqI jf sky pr mY AusnUM lB nf sikaf. koeI afKy ik Auh vlYq cilaf igaf sI qy koeI kuJ hor dwsy; bhuiqaF Aus bfry axjfxqf pRgtfeI.
iek idn svyry ds ku vjy mY afpxy isrhfxy Aupr iek ilPfPf ipaf hoieaf vyiKaf. Aus Aupr ieh awKr tfeIp kIqy hoey sn: ‘Pfr trYvilMg aYkspYNzIcr afPL iganI sMqoK isMG jI.’ lPfPf Kohl ky vyiKaf qF Aus ivc EQoN dI krMsI pMj sO iglzn sn. mY sfry jLuMmyvfr bMidaF qy bIbIaF nUM pwuCdf iPrF ik ieh swuqy pey nUM pwKI dI Jwl iks ny mfrI hY! koeI nf dwsy. lOZy ku vylLy mY dPLqr ivc sYkRytrI dy sfhmxy vflLI kursI Aupr bYTf hoieaf sF qy sYkRytrI bIbI jo ik jrmn mUl dI isMGxI sjI hoeI sI, bYTI hoeI sI. mY aKIr qy aYvyN hI AusnUM dwisaf ik ies qrHF mYnUM pYsy imlLy hn pr koeI nhI dwsdf ik iks ny rwKy hn. Ausny ikhf ik mY puwCdf ikAuN hF! mY afpxy hfs rsI suBf anusfr ikhf ik mY moVn leI nhI puwCdf; isrP ieh pqf krn leI hI puWCdf hF ik ieh eynf cMgf kMm iks suihrd swjx ny kIqf hY! Ausny ikhf, “mY rwKy hn.“ mY soicaf ik sLfied Ausny afsLrm dy sFJy KLjLfny ivcoN myrI shfieqf leI rwKy hox! myry ieAuN puwCx qy Aus cMgI bIbI ny dwisaf ik Ausny afpxI injI jyb ivcoN rwKy hn. myry ‘ikAuN’ puwCx qy Ausny dwisaf ik Aus pfs Ausdy ipqf jI duafrf Aus leI CwzI hoeI swbrkqI mfieaf hY. Aus ivcoN ijQy Auh TIk smJy KLrc krdI hY. Ausny ikhf, “mYnUM quhfzf imsLn shI lwigaf hY. ies leI mY Aus dy KLrc ivc afpxy vwloN ieh quwC ijhf ihwsf pf idqf hY. mY Aus bIbI df DMnvfd kr idqf. iek jrmn iswK sjy nOjvfn nflL afpxf ivafh krvfAux AupRMq, Auh pqI smyq, suBfg joVI, myry sLYPLrz busL, lMzn, ivKy invfs smy, EQy imlLx vfsqy vI afeI. *******